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the lake like the original plan so the process was slower. Instead I kept throwing out the biggest
power net I could and dragging things to our shore as I could. Then I d help grow the water plants and
remineralize the soil as it needed.
It was complicated and I wasn t really even sure how I was doing it, but Mike told me that they were
seeing more fish on their trips out on the boats. So that was something.
The second week I was tired all the time, napping with the pups as they did. Part of it was the fact that
they didn t sleep through the night, needing formula and basically doing what babies did. So when
they slept, I did.
But it was more than that. The sex with my inner circle left me feeling empty and it got worse each
time we did it. I started avoiding them or coming up with excuses as to why I couldn t. They seemed
confused but didn t say much.
I also spent a lot of time crying in my wolf form. This wasn t the life I had imagined when I d signed
that contract. I had wanted more, real love, and a real mating. Instead the only love I got was from the
pups.
The beginning of my third week at Medical Lake, I had given the pups their first lesson in hunting.
After they were fed, they fell right to sleep, and I headed inside. They wanted to stay with me now
and I didn t have to worry about someone watching them constantly. Granted, I never left for all that
long, but I didn t have to be with them always at least now.
 There you are, Bay purred as I headed towards my room. They were all in the kitchen for lunch and
my Alpha pounced on me.
 I need a shower, I sighed as he touched me intimately.  I want to brush my teeth and get cleaned
up.
 You haven t let one of us touch you in days, Wes, he said gently, but didn t let me go.  Things
aren t getting better, they re getting worse. You don t want to have sex with us anymore even, do
you?
 No, I admitted, my stomach tying itself up in knots at finally admitting that out loud.  You can send
me back. The High Council will make an exception I m sure if you tell them I refuse to do my duty to
you.
 No! Harkin and Levey exclaimed together as they jumped to their feet.
 This isn t about the sex, baby, Bay said gently and I broke down in front of them finally.
 I m not your baby! I sobbed and fought to get away.  I m not your mate. I hurt all the time. I don t
even want sex now. I can t keep doing this or I m going to die of sadness!
 Forgive us, Bay pleaded as he lifted me into his arms.  Forgive us, Wes. We love you. We want
you to be our mate. We want to claim you and wake up with you in our arms every morning.
 What? I gasped, his words penetrating through my hysterical fit.
 We love you, Harkin answered with a soft smile as he reached out and touched my cheek.  We
have for a while now but were too afraid we d make things worse by telling you. You re wonderful,
Wes. You re so sweet and kind. Do you know how many people would never think to raise wolf cubs
like you are? It s such hard work and it s been all you do for weeks now.
 They needed me. I shook my head. They didn t know me well enough to love me.
 Yes, but just because they needed someone doesn t mean most would have said yes to that, he
defended.
 And you re giving, Bay added as he rubbed my back.  We know you re tired, sad, and drained, but
yet, every day you go to the lake and help clean it up some more. We think it s all been too taxing for
you. It takes energy to stay in your wolf form as long as you do, plus us screwing up and hurting you,
and it s not helping your depression.
 Having jerks hurt me made me fall into depression, I countered as I finally got him to let me go.
 You guys can t love me. You barely know me. You didn t even trust me not to be a lying prick. So
send me back if you want but don t you dare lie to me.
 We re not liars! Bay shouted as I raced to my room. I skidded to a halt when I felt a familiar
presence. I didn t even hesitate. I dove onto the bed and curled up on his lap, letting him hold me.
 I should beat you for lying to me like you did, Tristan whispered as he hugged me tightly.  Imagine
my surprise when your inner circled called and asked to release you from your contract because they
thought they were killing you slowly.
 They hurt me, I sobbed, not sure what else to say.
 Yes, they were idiots. Men normally are. Mine can be too.
 You re not going to tell me to let it go?
 Not yet, he sighed.  Right now you need to get all this pain and anger out. I m here to help with that.
Once you re calm and feel better for having let it out, then we ll talk about how to fix things. Nothing [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]